This semester going to a end...

Well, this semester is approaching to the end. Right now is the study week, most of friends went home, me too. The street of university going to be silent, and the smell of stress is going to become denser and denser. This is a normal phenomenon in most universities.

But for me, the thoughts in my mind are getting complicated, I can sense that. Financial, academic, lovers, friends, capabilities, attitude, all these elements always get streamed in my mind on and off. Life isn't a simple thing when you aim for higher than normal people. However, in detail, I feel that it is not about my goals in my life is higher than others, but is different than others.
I don't like being in red sea environment (红海）but being in blue sea（蓝海）in comfortable for me. This is from business term, because I don't like to fight the same things with others but fight different things for myself. This is my life philosophy.

Actually I'm sick of working for money but money working for me is better for me. I would like to use all my free times to do something more worth to the mankind and the world. You see the people nowadays working is for their life get the so called money, when they get free space and time, they spend for their own benefits. From working, they bypass their contribution to the society, but in you a serious question asking you that: if you have a chance to not to work, will you? Definitely! I won't! Why we have to work? We have several reason, money, faces, satisfaction, social identiy, and more... but most are for themselves do you notice that? Anyone working for the world? Stupid factor to work for the world right? Haiz... This is the culture that has significant destructive power to collapse the earth...
I'm just frustrated with the attitude of egoism for people nowadays...

Why involve this topic already ah? =.=

Next semester will be my second year, it's more tough as predicted. But I'm not scared at all, I can't wait to get through them indeed. I found an attitude to face all these challenges, it is the energetic attitude. Agree or not? If you're being energetic enough, your mind is be critical, conscious enough and speedy enough...

There are a lot of hard time waiting for me to go through out there. It's not just a hard word can describe them, but a misery maybe. I will keep one perception is my mind:
~『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』~
But hor, if life doesn't has any hard time, will that life be meaningful? Wow, it sounds like I should appreciate each hard time and love them much, it is the source of meaningful and colorful!

Since when I being so confused about my writing in my blog ah? The thing is just like there are a lot of things in my gut but don't know how to spell out. Hahax... that is why sometimes my action is faster than my blog....

OK la, this sem is going to end, just boost for all my papers. When the sem break starts, I wanna grasp my time to read more books! Enhance my knowledge in investment for passive income. Being unemployed before 30 is my dream and now I'm going for it!!!

To everyone I loved: Cherish our life forever~!
When a new semester comes, we fight for our life again! Miss you all so much!!!

3rd Anniversary with my beloved dear~~~

3 years ago from the date and time of 2/12/2006, 2 a.m. Our relation was in love. In the conversation through space (through phone) in a distanced places, but we started out relationship.

3 years later and it is now, we still in relationship in loved. There are uncountable arguments and problems we gone through, sorrow and happiness are major parts in our relationship.

This year our anniversary was postponed later in one day because the date didn't match out free time. Below are photos taken during our simple and sweet celebration...











We bought meat in tesco, we made watermelon juice, we cooked spaghetti and its source. It was delicious!!! we made this sweet sweet dinner together and enjoyed it slowly. Cheers!!!

It was a happy ending...

But...

When the time I 1st met my gf in westlake (cause she has been fetching me back Ipoh) I was very disappointed. I'm a guy who really don't like to see others bad faces. It is so not respectful for me. Then? we argued again la... Both angry like hell, threw spec some more. Haiz... was me again stepped in a kind manners, taking the initiative to speak softly even though both had wrong in this case. So what? I'm a male, I'm only the one should take initiative to comfort her... So hard to achieve that. I just forget about it, hope it really won't happen again.

The financial condition for my gf and me is worst. We can't afford to do many things. I have to ear bread everyday in my uni life also. Haiz... Beauty is the only only important for a female? My gf has been buying shishedo for her beauty without considering future financial planning but on concentrate in beauty. I don't like that. If I take those RM 300 from buying expensive products to go for invest, the return is much more greater, but normal female doesn't notice that. They like to save and save their money just for their beauty. What for? Just for beauty? Is that the everything through out your life? I as her bf, has to help me in financial things. I surely love her, that is why I sincerely willing to spend my money on her life. I know have much more hard to go if I lose control of my financial planning. In fact,. I lost my financial support, but I will to. Because it's solely I love her... Dear, knowledge, personality and inner beauty are richer and valuer than beauty... We cannot too concentrate on a single part in our life. Because it will give rise of unbalance lifestyle...

In end, I just have to say, I love you so much, 3 years is a prove for us to stay longer and stonger! Muack!!!!!!

Boring classes

This short sem started already, but most of the classes are bored,making me feel sleepy on classes. Hahax... however, I think this situation will end soon as the assigment things coming on and on...

Nice to be here... yesterday gathered with my friends which I met since the orientation of uni of my Jan intake. We ate steamboat and played mafia last night, syoknya~ Most of my kampar family gang not here around, but still have to go on. 1506 is very silent...

New semester begins lu!!! Yeah!!!

This is a short semester which consists of only 7 teaching weeks...

I have 3 subjects to be studied during this semester i.e. Organization Human Resource (OHR), Interpersonal Communication (IPC) and Introduction to Japanese (JAP). All are my minors... I'm happy because this sem has no report need to do (because no laboratory)!!!

This evening when I was packing and tidying my room, I found out a sheet with meaningful contains.
-> You don't have to know "How To" before setting the goal. You set the goal and then you will see the "How To"!
-> Fear is sometimes a false evidence of appearing things...
-> Tomorrow is today!!! (Try to think in detail... Today is tomorrow of yesterday. So today is tomorrow and vice versa)
-> When you keep energy to the problem, the problem grows...

You know what, sometimes a little statement may make you have a great change. But look out, some of the statements sound meaningful but not necessary true. For example, "能够用钱解决的问题就不是问题啦~" This statement itself has big problem but too many people don't realize that. When you get a statement, it sounds meaningful, but you have to digest it 1st before putting it into your soul.

However, I'm so happy about this sem not because it doesn't has report, is actually because of I can study. I know many children or teenagers out there are waiting chances to be educated, but sadly they can't get it. Well now I want grab this great opportunity to study, besides study for the pointer, but rather than the knowledge... 人穷也不能穷知识!

My CE Y1S2 Result...

GPA: 2.5125 (From 2.9 dropped to 2.5)
CGPA: 2.7188 (From 2.9 dropped to 2.7)

The above result accompanied with a grade of F for my Computer paper... Not bad lo. Got a "F" (failed) still can get GPA 2.5, not bad lo...

This is the result that I predicted right after I missed my computer paper... GPA 2.5 was I predicted previously can now I get a GPA 2.5125, same lo... I can accept la... With this situation now, I just be satisfied lo... CGPA 2.7188, Left 0.3 to chase back... I can de!!!

From another view,
As I was a bad boy in secondary school, now turned to be an undergraduate, and also with CGPA near to 3.0, satisfied lo. I know I can do even better, but slowly ba... I'm just 1st year, two more years to go. I can chase back de!!! I want second-upper!!!

Here, I wanna thank all people around me encourage me to move on no matter what happens. Thank for those study with me, teach me when I don't understand, especially the physics, hard ah... Dr Lee (my physics lecturer)... I know I made u disappointed as you put your hope on me so much. But I tried my hard to do my physics, the final exam paper just very difficulty, I already tried my best... Hope you understand me. Thank you Chester, KO, Qsun, Lim, SheeLing and many of my classmates, all of you have accompanied me through out those semesters... Now the new semester is nearly to begin, are you ready? I'm ready!!!

Beside, thank to everyone that are in the "Family" of my Kampar gang... JJ ah, XinYin ah, too many to mention. Sorry that I made u all a suddent suprise that I missed my computer paper... I never hope this happens again...

Overall, satisfied... Hope everyone beside me, no matter what result you get, it's the fact that can't be changed, but the future is something not only to change, is more to create... Look forward my beloved friends!!!

2009 October Sem Breaking...

Well, I'm semester breaking...
Time to rest and rejuvenate!!!

When think back about those Computer paper things again la... Haiz... Actually until now, i still can't get the point, the main reason yet... But it's really a time to change... My life style... yea... my life style.. and the major thing is my thoughts...

I felt that all friends around me have the same opinion, when I put my personal msg on my msn (I want cover back to CGPA 3.0), All msn friends said that it's not a problem for me... but in fact in the reality... it is "is"...

Why???

Well, there are many things impede me... but life should be challenging right? No problem comes appear, no learning opportunity... agree?
Haiz... somehow... I just can't overcome it... Can't explain here... Not easy to explain here...(lazy to explain ah~!) IT'S JUST I CREATED PROBLEM TO MYSELF...! ARH~~~!
waste time, money & energy!!! sick of it!

I really want make a clear realization... I don't want the same big mistake appear in my life again!!! I must learn from my mistake!!! 錯中修!!!
Yea... I should not scared/afraid of it..."不要怕，不要悔。" Because life is a continuous process, time streaming, space obeying...

My next semester is another new semester!!! Another brand new again... new chance... gogogo!!!

Used VS Loved

USED vs LOVED


While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up a stone

and scratched lines on the side of the car.



In anger, the man took the child's hand and hit it many times not
realizing
he was using a wrench.


At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple
fractures.

When the child saw his father..... with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when
will my fingers grow back?'


The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked it
a lot of times.

Devastated by his own actions...... sitting in front of that car he
looked at the scratches;


the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'. The next day that man committed
suicide. . .

Anger and Love have no limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful,
lovely
life & remember this:



Things are to be used and people are to be loved.

The problem in today's world is that people are used while things are
loved.

Let's try always to keep this thought in mind:



Things are to be used,

People are to be loved.


Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character;

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

2 girls there, not here anymore... but seem like here also... mind-confused;heart-tight

Sometimes, I'm not clear about myself... Isn't it I don't have any position within? because I'm male? I can't be treated normally?

Any little talk seems like no more space to me involve in, feeling like I have been chased out there...

Too many things are there, but none of those I have the right to involve, I don't have the right to talk even!

Too many things hiding from me! Too many things hurting me! why? i also don't know lo... feel like myself to stupid!

Haiz... In fact, where is my right to involve? There are girls, you're boy! Keep yourself back, don't ever go there, stay everything out, don't bother, don't hear, don't care... Back to myself without having any relation with them... That is solution for this moment only I can find back myself. That is the way for this moment only I can live better.

Back to here... Don't go there... Don't care there... because I don't have the right to be with there indeed. Because no matter how good I be for them, I'm just different with them, I'm just not having right to involve within 2 girls in kampar. Because they are girls!!! I'm BOY!!!

Moment

"Moment" this word is really best to describe feelings or mood.
Sometimes, when you don't know how to be yourself or lost out yourself, it will last only in a moment.
Well, within a moment, you have many choices... Well, for me... I prefer push away all those choices and create mine one, i.e. stay at the same frame of mind, having my own thoughts... That would be more comfortable.

I have bad moment, good moment, terrible moment, bored moment, great moment, or even don't have time to stay in a moment.
I prefer to set a moment to myself, only me without others. The moment consists of my world, my thoughts. I love the feelings when I aligned with everything in this world. Having same state of mind with the world. Saying inner world talks, talking to the world is actually talking to myself.

When the busy life can't get away from you, I prefer get myself away from the busy life. Because my moment is my essential moment, I can't live without it and I can't breath without it.

The best thing I ever felt is talking to myself.

Alone? No! I'm talking to myself!

People might think that I'm crazy, I think that you're stupid.

One without his/her own space of moment, you're no longer yourself.

Sometimes, I'm thinking that this is a place where nobody is allowed to go in. My thoughts are mine, not yours. My thoughts are unique. I'm my thoughts.

I have lived on the earth for 21 years...

Busy, busy and busy making me no time to write blog recently... Somehow, this is my space to talk to myself... I have to come back here and have some inner talks.

I have lived on the earth for 21 years... I'm organism, living thing, homo sapiens... hahax.. sure everyone knows... But the point is, as a species of homo sapiens, we know actually what we are doing?

I have been observing so called life on this earth for over 21 years. And even i put so many feelings into it. It's totally undescribable.

Tonight, a silent nite... I didn't know why i couldn't get into sleep since i tried to sleep from 11.30pm until this moment. My mind is full of things. Maybe this is moment for me get my mind rest from the progressive time line. Everything just stop for me for a while.

I used to describe so called life since I was small, the only answer i could get was: Life is point of view. But now, the answet is just one part of it. Maybe...

Along this 21 years on the earth, I have gone through too much of things which are uncountable. I crept since I was baby, walked and then run; I suffered beating from parents; I cried; I lost to myself; surrundered to things against me; gave up music, gave up basketball, gave up too many things; too many things I failed to try; losing too many chances; I loved and being loved; I hurt someone and being hurt by someone; sometimes hurt until my hands were paralyzed shaking at the middle of the night; loved girls for years; went to seaside with family, very enjoyed; played guitar with my cousin; jamming with my best friends; first time performed on the stage, first time entered university life; first time to have motorcycle; first time facing serious accident with left leg's bone fractured; cried at the middle of the night for uncountable times; first to have own blog; first moving out from house and live alone out there; living with philosophy since small; having unique thoughts since born, had my first love since standard five; few girlfriends until now, new best friends; new memories; bought first electric guitar for RM 1250; firs time going out to work with dad at form three; drove lorry since form three; always argue with my sister since small until now; first time went to real concert that was Avril Lavigne's concert at KL; received gifts through birthday; chased by many girls; lost some memorable friends; being a school class teacher for standard one at PoiLam; being a clerk at development company; worked as promoter before; composed own songs; love cute things since small; since small, I loved the things which girls would like, e.g. dolldom; like to eat wantanmee since small; being more matured than others during secondary school; being a gangster when I was at the beginning of seconday school; I smoked before; I turned from a bad boy to a neutral boy; from losing out the study career until gaining back; learnt how to swim from my dad; learnt how to drive from ym dad; observed my dad how to survive in this society; observed myself how to live on from time to time; being hurt by girl until wanted to jump from high building to death; had elder sister before, but with sad ending; being a vice president of guitar club; studied form 6 at ACS; just for particular girl, cried for her almost every single night; get deep realization from mind night crying; being tougher of myself; being helpfull; being scheming; being selfish; being sincere; being considerable; being cool; being nice; being polite; being mature; being spoiled-manner; being danger; being horrible; being sweet; being down; being regret; being happy; being cheerful; being energytic; being sleepy; being stressed; being relax; being passion; being enjoyed; being scolded; being nature; being myself; being others; being unknown; gone through several stages of life; change from a kind of person to another kind of person; changing until this moment, living until this moment, awake until this moment, observe until this moment, realizing until this moment, having inner talks until this moment, there are too many uncoutable things that are in my life...

21 years; this figure is not very big, but not small also. I can do many things but also can do nothing along these years...

After I lived on the earth for 21 years, I feel that, life is a preicous ever thing I have ever met. It is three dimensionals, consists of time, space and one secret thing. I have three living principles in my life, but even after 21 years, one that is tight with me is philosophy. I do any action in my life is actually involved my own philosophy.

From now on, I will continue toughen my philosophy. Music is my living soul from time to time.

From the deepest saying, I'm still me, the same manner of thoughts when I was born in here. This is the only thing that will never changed until the end of my life. Because without this, I'm no longer me.

My phrase: 『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』