Moment

"Moment" this word is really best to describe feelings or mood.
Sometimes, when you don't know how to be yourself or lost out yourself, it will last only in a moment.
Well, within a moment, you have many choices... Well, for me... I prefer push away all those choices and create mine one, i.e. stay at the same frame of mind, having my own thoughts... That would be more comfortable.

I have bad moment, good moment, terrible moment, bored moment, great moment, or even don't have time to stay in a moment.
I prefer to set a moment to myself, only me without others. The moment consists of my world, my thoughts. I love the feelings when I aligned with everything in this world. Having same state of mind with the world. Saying inner world talks, talking to the world is actually talking to myself.

When the busy life can't get away from you, I prefer get myself away from the busy life. Because my moment is my essential moment, I can't live without it and I can't breath without it.

The best thing I ever felt is talking to myself.

Alone? No! I'm talking to myself!

People might think that I'm crazy, I think that you're stupid.

One without his/her own space of moment, you're no longer yourself.

Sometimes, I'm thinking that this is a place where nobody is allowed to go in. My thoughts are mine, not yours. My thoughts are unique. I'm my thoughts.

I have lived on the earth for 21 years...

Busy, busy and busy making me no time to write blog recently... Somehow, this is my space to talk to myself... I have to come back here and have some inner talks.

I have lived on the earth for 21 years... I'm organism, living thing, homo sapiens... hahax.. sure everyone knows... But the point is, as a species of homo sapiens, we know actually what we are doing?

I have been observing so called life on this earth for over 21 years. And even i put so many feelings into it. It's totally undescribable.

Tonight, a silent nite... I didn't know why i couldn't get into sleep since i tried to sleep from 11.30pm until this moment. My mind is full of things. Maybe this is moment for me get my mind rest from the progressive time line. Everything just stop for me for a while.

I used to describe so called life since I was small, the only answer i could get was: Life is point of view. But now, the answet is just one part of it. Maybe...

Along this 21 years on the earth, I have gone through too much of things which are uncountable. I crept since I was baby, walked and then run; I suffered beating from parents; I cried; I lost to myself; surrundered to things against me; gave up music, gave up basketball, gave up too many things; too many things I failed to try; losing too many chances; I loved and being loved; I hurt someone and being hurt by someone; sometimes hurt until my hands were paralyzed shaking at the middle of the night; loved girls for years; went to seaside with family, very enjoyed; played guitar with my cousin; jamming with my best friends; first time performed on the stage, first time entered university life; first time to have motorcycle; first time facing serious accident with left leg's bone fractured; cried at the middle of the night for uncountable times; first to have own blog; first moving out from house and live alone out there; living with philosophy since small; having unique thoughts since born, had my first love since standard five; few girlfriends until now, new best friends; new memories; bought first electric guitar for RM 1250; firs time going out to work with dad at form three; drove lorry since form three; always argue with my sister since small until now; first time went to real concert that was Avril Lavigne's concert at KL; received gifts through birthday; chased by many girls; lost some memorable friends; being a school class teacher for standard one at PoiLam; being a clerk at development company; worked as promoter before; composed own songs; love cute things since small; since small, I loved the things which girls would like, e.g. dolldom; like to eat wantanmee since small; being more matured than others during secondary school; being a gangster when I was at the beginning of seconday school; I smoked before; I turned from a bad boy to a neutral boy; from losing out the study career until gaining back; learnt how to swim from my dad; learnt how to drive from ym dad; observed my dad how to survive in this society; observed myself how to live on from time to time; being hurt by girl until wanted to jump from high building to death; had elder sister before, but with sad ending; being a vice president of guitar club; studied form 6 at ACS; just for particular girl, cried for her almost every single night; get deep realization from mind night crying; being tougher of myself; being helpfull; being scheming; being selfish; being sincere; being considerable; being cool; being nice; being polite; being mature; being spoiled-manner; being danger; being horrible; being sweet; being down; being regret; being happy; being cheerful; being energytic; being sleepy; being stressed; being relax; being passion; being enjoyed; being scolded; being nature; being myself; being others; being unknown; gone through several stages of life; change from a kind of person to another kind of person; changing until this moment, living until this moment, awake until this moment, observe until this moment, realizing until this moment, having inner talks until this moment, there are too many uncoutable things that are in my life...

21 years; this figure is not very big, but not small also. I can do many things but also can do nothing along these years...

After I lived on the earth for 21 years, I feel that, life is a preicous ever thing I have ever met. It is three dimensionals, consists of time, space and one secret thing. I have three living principles in my life, but even after 21 years, one that is tight with me is philosophy. I do any action in my life is actually involved my own philosophy.

From now on, I will continue toughen my philosophy. Music is my living soul from time to time.

From the deepest saying, I'm still me, the same manner of thoughts when I was born in here. This is the only thing that will never changed until the end of my life. Because without this, I'm no longer me.

My phrase: 『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』

破萤 - 第一届拉曼大学乐塔创作坊歌曲创作发表演绎会 @ 28th June 2009

See, performer, Kevin 谢立康. a guitarist... I don't want just a guitarist. In fact, I want be a composer! Yo! Next season i want send my composition to them... see whether can get a prize or not... hehex...
Above is the album which consists almost all the songs that composed by Utarians. It cost RM 18, but mine album is valuer than RM 18 o~, because i got all the signature from all singers!
Andy with the beauty singer from the song of "只想对你说一句 I'm sorry", her
Me with the great singer from the song of "只想对你说一句 I'm sorry", her name is Elle, major in PR, PJ university campus.
The chairman of yuetamusic...
My fren, ipoh guitarist...
Drumer and singer together with me in this photo
My fren, handsome helper...
Hahax... Andy, a strong guitarist in my band... yo!
My electric guitar...

Music instruments we used during the concert...



These were the photos that I captured down during this music concert.

The title of the concert is "破萤". This music concert really show that utar really got alot of music-lover... I know there are many people out there love music so much! You all are very welcome to join in, you no need know music instrument well, we here is to share music which is really essential.

During the gig, people asked me "how can i get the song that performed just now?" I told them the album is just over outside, u can buy anytime, it's RM 18 only! For those songs which are not recorded in the album then i'm sorry, I only can tel them is it is essential, u can't download anywhere but only listen once during the gig!

Sincerely, all the songs that being performed on that stage of the day are really nice... I miss it so much! but at least, i got the album which i can enjoy anytime... :-p

Gambateh yuetamusic! 加油 乐塔创作坊！

~Welcoming Concert~ @ 13th June 2009

Here are the photos about the welcoming concert...

When I was in the studio for practices...









Yo man... playing electric guitar la~











When rehearsal...










The heritage hall....









The concert almost starts......










Yo, that electric really cool man! Sure it's expensive!... But the sound really damn good la.. like it!










After the show, I took some photos with my friends...



They are the committee members...










This is one the lenglui from the committee also...




















This is my handsome bassist also... cool...






However, the show was cool, we played so high on stage. As overall, we reached the requirement from the committee, it's my satisfactory.

Ok, now, new life begins!

Today, 29th of May. I'm sitting here at 1506/A4, westlake, kampar. Previous post like a mess. However, my new life should begin now!

OK, new semester, new thing, new start, new life! I want be a smart n' steady person. This is also what I always want! And I should be like that so that I have confidence to face new challenge!

Sleep at 11pm every night is good and wake up at 5am is best. What I want is to better than previous semester. I want 3.5 to 3.7. I don't know whether I can achieve this or not; but I'll try! Just go and try, this is my point. Can or not is another thing.

The sky is dark now, the street is silent, and I'm hearing my heart saying... Start from tomorrow, is another stage of life. Don't care what you done for the last, the future is right in front of you. Just go~~~

I'll follow what I discovered: 『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』
I'm here to live, not alive!

Good night~!

I don't know what i write... I'm not clear...

After discussed with gf. I decided to lower my aim. 3.5-3.7 is enough. It's better achieve "better" 1st than the "best".

Haiz... Many things out of control. Just do what my hands can do.

Many things I wanted to write here. But when sitting down, my mind is blank. I think it's too many and I don't know where should start from.

Hope everything will be fine...

Things are hard to predict. It's better to create it. See 1st ba...

Confidence should get back... Energy should get back... Time should get back...

I also don't what i'm talking on this post... Totally blur... Let it be...

Bye... Let it me...

Enjoy biscuit making... But the weather tourtures me...

Yesterday, I went to my gf's house to make biscuit! It was quite hard at 1st, but once I mastered it, the work became easier. The progress of making this kind of biscuit is slow. But it was very enjoy...

Maybe because of yesterday work, I didn't sleep well. The weather was damn hot yesterday! While I was sleeping at the middle of the night, my body sweating! The worst weather woke me up and ended me up headache this morning.

The climate change of the weather really bad. Who made it? is you and me, the human.

You can sacrifice many things to achieve what you want, but better don't choose health.

Agree? Many young people nowadays, will probably sacrifice their health to achieve what they wanted. It doesn't sound good to anybody, but everybody does so. Why? Because of the surrounding.

Everyday, most undergraduates will go their bed at a very late night. They have assignments, reports, tests, quizzes, discussions and a lot of coursework stuff waiting for them. Times being grabbed by those things. Sleep? Later first la~~~

365 days in a year, you will spend about hundred days just on the sleep. In other word, sleeping occupies about 27% of days in a year, while occupies about 30% of hours in your routine, on the average.

And some undergraduates, they may allow only 20% of hours occupied by sleeping per day, on the average.

We should have a normal sleeping habit, then your health will be ok. This everyone knows. But if you contribute less on your sleeping, your health will probably be affected. Come on, health is more important than others. Don't always choose the health as a victim. Once you lose health, you will lose more than that.

Occasionally, I know some situation may not allow you much on the sleeping, so you must remember after work, do some compensation on your sleeping. I think this is only way to gain back your health.

Remember o~ You always have the choice, don't always choose health as victim. Health is worthy than others. When you hear the 'victim' calling you from suffering, bring it out or else the person gets hurt is you.

When the semester starts, we fight! When the semester break comes, we sleep! Hahax...
Guys, happy holidays!

I know health is more important than study...

As I said wanna achieve 4.0 CGPA in my up-coming semester, my girlfriend started to cool me down. She doesn't wish to see me forcing myself so hard to achieve good result. In fact 4.0 for me is a perfect result in academic.

My health seems like getting worse now. Headache comes to me frequently. When I sick, it takes long time to recover. My immune system is weaken now. I know, this one i know. And i know that my gf just want me to be happy and healthy through out the life.

Ok la, I say that however, I'll give a try to achieve 4.0 CGPA. Failure without a try will make me feel the sense of loss. At least let me to try it ok? Even though I fail, I'll fail with satisfaction.

My gf says that "during semester break, you should rest well, and it's only time for resting. Once the semester reopens again, you have to fight again, and you got very less time for resting."
OK la, I promise la... Even through I study next semester's stuff during my sem break, by the way, I'll get my relaxation well ok? And I'll always remember that without a healthy body, Others seem like pointless.

Tq to my dear~~~

『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』

『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』

在生命中的某个时刻，我寻到了这句哲理。十二个字包含了生命的一大部分。对我而言，这是生命中的十二大字。让我们来好好仔细分析这句哲理吧~

『做中学』 - 做字在先，表示说任何东西与事件，都要有个“做”字在先。你一定要做；如果你不做，事情是不会有所跟进的。很多人都只是空想，想他们应该怎么开始做，到头来连第一步也没踏出。那我告诉你吧，梦想不只是纯粹拿来想的，那你还等什么？做啊！成功不是一种意外。你真正需要的只是东西的概念，其余的你都能从你做的过程中看到，而从做的过程中得到宝贵的经验。不在乎你走得多慢，只要你不停。世上的知识是永生求不完的，我们要从做的过程中学习，边做边领悟。

『錯中修』 - 错误﹑不对﹑误解﹑搞错﹑误会和过失都是在“错”字内，而这“错”字的含义其实很广，它还包含了不正当﹑不道德﹑不公正﹑不好﹑不法﹑毛病﹑缺点和生命中的种种流失。通过错，我们可以更加认识我们自己，从中调整我们自己的人品人格。凡事都需要我们去深思，事情不只是单单从表面就可以了解的。一旦错出现了，我们就该好好利用它以进行反省。错就好像是我们的导师，它可以告诉我们很多我们平时看不到的东西。有些人把错形容成“失败”，不管你怎么形容它，每一个错的出现，都印证了你已向对的出现跨前了一步；同样的，每一个失败，都表示着你已向成功跨前一步。没失败哪来成功？

有些人不知道他们错的时候错了，对的时候对了，因为他们不太懂得错与对之分，再说，错与对中间都夹着些不错也不对或是对也是错的元素。这就是为什么我们要从做中又来学，错中又来修呢~

『不要怕』 - 先听听这个吧~
「一个年轻人离开家乡，要开始创造自己的未来。少小离家，心里难免有几分惶恐。他动身的第一站，是去拜访部落酋长，请求指点。酋长正在练字，他听说有位后辈开始踏上人生的旅途，就写了三个字：“不要怕”，然后抬起头来，望着前来求教的年轻人说：“孩子，人生的秘诀只有六个字，今天先告诉你三个字，供你半生受用。”」

就这三个字，“不要怕”真的能影响你的大半生啊~相信你曾听过中年以前不要怕吧，因为年轻时是最有活力的了。趁着你很有推动力时，朝你的那片天空飞去，是再也潇洒不得了！蠢的人会等待机会的来临，而且还可能错失良机；聪敏的人会好好把握每一次宝贵的机会；成功的人会是创造机会的那一种。不要害怕去做每一件事，你会发现成功与失败都是一种很有意义的东西。
再仔细的分析，有些人在做的过程中，会很害怕于将得到的成绩或结果，而对自己的“做”缺乏信心，你忘了吗？做中学啊，错中还要去修啊。不要害怕去尝试，更害怕的是你不去尝试。

故事中其余的三个字呢？当然是“不要悔”啊~

『不要悔』 - 继续听下半段的故事吧。
「20年后，这个从前的年轻人已是中年，他有一些成就，拥有了很多的快乐，也添了很多的伤心。归程漫漫，近乡情怯，他又去拜访那位酋长。
他到了酋长家里，才知道老人家几年前已经去世。家人取出一个密封的信对他说：“这是老先生生前留给你的，他说有一天你一定会再来。”他拆开信封，里面赫然又是三个大字：“不要悔”。」

不要习惯性的为你的选择而后悔，你要清楚的知道，每一个时刻都是一个选择，而每一个选择都来自你自己；你更要知道的是，在每一个不同的情况下，你都有选择的余地。不要用“早知道”来推卸责任，早知道或早不知道都是你的选择。一旦你选择了，就不要后悔啊~相信你也听过中年后不要悔吧！在你选择做某些事情时，可以得到欢乐，也可以得到悲伤。欢乐是一种很美丽的回忆，悲伤也可以是一种很珍贵的回忆。要达到这种“不要悔”又有很好回忆的境界的话，你真的需要好好珍惜身边的任何人与物。

如果将人生一分为二，前半生的人生哲学是“不要怕”，后半生的人生哲学是“不要悔”。
人生在世，中年以前不要怕—最大的错误是不敢犯错；中年以后不要悔—最大的遗憾是没有遗憾。这是经验的提炼，智慧的浓缩。

~『做中學，錯中修；不要怕，不要悔。』~这十二个字，是一种过程。



终于写完了！哈哈！很开心！希望能够带给读者很多的益处吧！
资料来源：一些网络，和一本书 - 世界最简单的哲理书，刘华亭编著，德威出版。
以上的大多都是自编的，而所取得资料都已经过本人修改。
希望您能享尽无穷！谢谢！Thank you~! ;-)